Never The Same

Lumipas na ang napakaraming buwan, laki na nang pagbabago. Tumaba na ako lalo. Hahaha. Hello Bleu! Ayaw ko kasi na magpost, same rants lang naman maririnig mo sa akin. Iyong mga walang kwentang bagay, alam mo na. Pero ayun nasa last sem na ako ng aral medisina tapos ilang buwan nalang JI na ako. Duduty na ako. Totoong buhay na ang hahawakan ko. Pero syempre una sa lahat sana wala akong remeds!

Vneck!

Dati ang tanda ko pangarap ko lang makasuot ng black nameplate for internship. Tapos sabi ko pa nun kay Ate, kaya ako magmemed dahil sa 'Vneck ng med' kasi angas tapos gwapo tignan. Tapos ngayon andito na ako sa point na magsusuot na ako nito next year. Ang sarap isipin talaga. Hahaha.

Wala na ata ako sa mood magsulat. Hahaha. Thoughtless. Tapos gusto kong ipost pictures nung induction, medical missions. Hay... Maybe giving up on this one.

Magbuwag at Muling Itayo

Mag-iisang buwan nang ginagawa ang bahay namin at sinasabi ko sa'yo, sobrang laking paghihirap ang dinanas ko. Biruin mo, tinanggal nila study table ko sa loob ng bahay. As in masasabi mo para akong isang homeless na estudyanteng walang maaralan sa kanyang sariling bahay. Marami exams, quizzes na ang naalay ko dahil dito. Pero maganda naman, sobrang luwag na nga ng bahay e. :)

Long weekend ba kamo? Hindi ako nag-aral, nagsisimula palang. Iaalay ko nalang ba ulit mga ito? Kailangan ko mag3rd year! Kailangan ko ng V-neck na yan! Kailangan ko ng bago kong nameplate na ilang buwan nang hindi nagagawa!

Konting buwan nalang. Konting hirap nalang.

New Whatever!

No promises just commitments. No New Year's Resolutions. These are just bullshits, right? Not being pessimistic. Goals? Changes? These are all lies. If you want to change something, do it NOW. Don't just say words out loud. Don't swear. Just DO. If you want to have something, work hard for it.

Alas! I'm still loveless on 2014. How lucky could I get?!

*I have no money to buy for Percy Jackson books. [Actually, I have but I don't want to spend my money for these books right now.] But thank God for ebook. One click away then *poof* you have it virtually within your grasp. For the past days, I've already finished 2 books. Well, it's just around 300+ pages, it's like reading 2-3 chapters of academic books. Speaking of which, I need to start studying later. 5 remaining days to prepare for next week. Hello PASUKAN NA NEXT WEEK! :|

*Pasingit lang pala ng drama ko. Naisip ko lang na kapag ang isa sa mga malalapit mo na kaibigan sa med school ay niligawan. Mapapalayo ka na sa'yo o ikaw sa kanya. Ewan, feel ko parang wala ng connection. Oo nag-uusap pero hanggang ganun lang. Or maybe nakukulitan nalang siya sa akin? Ha! :|

*Tapos kanina pinatugtog sa radyo iyong isang kanta. Wala, naalala ko lang lahat ng kalokohan na ginawa ko. Hahaha. Syet! Nahihiya ako para sa past sarili ko. 

Enough!

An understated word. Nothing is enough in this world. Humans are natural predators who hunger for power, for fame, for family and friends, for happiness, for everything. No matter how good you wished for, nothing will change. You will still want other things. That is the rule for us. Everyone may not know what one's heart seeks out but this is an obvious process to search for your happiness in life.

Yes to 2014! Soon!

No More!

I think this is my study post after so long of not ranting. Hay. I'm studying clin eps. It's not totally incomprehensible but I think I need to read it for so many times.

I'll just let it out. I can't contain it forever and I don't have a friend to talk too. Yeah, this is the ironic part. I don't tell my problems to people but instead I hide it. I know, my life is a mess and pitiful but I really don't know what to do. :||||||||

A while ago, we played Rockband and our subsec have a visitor from another subsec. And my subsec is teasing me to someone and that visitor likes the one my subsec is teasing me with. Magulo? Yes. Anyways, I don't like how they did it because I don't want that person to hate me because of some misconception. It's really sad that some people tend to do things they want. I don't know really. They didn't name drop but I think they're pertaining to me. Defensive much?

I like to cry right now but I can't. I can't voluntarily stimulate my lacrimal glands to produce tears that is of high concentration in salt. It's been so long since I cried, I can't remember when was the last time. Wah! Let them fall!

Lose thyself

2nd sem is indeed a heaven. We've got so much free time that one med student could ever have in his life. Seriously, the only problem that we are thinking about is 'WHAT TO DO?' We've got so much free time that we can jog/play badminton/rockband....and the list goes on.

One thing I learned. I suck at everything. Very low self esteem. I don't know what's the problem. Maybe, I'm just not mature enough. And I think all my emotions for love drifted away. Wahhh! Impending doom. :|

Inspiration please!