it's just a waste of time and energy

last wednesday during our marriage and family lecture, ma'am unas told us that it is just a waste of time and energy when you make tampo-tampo or nagalit sa isang tao without informing that person. gets? it's very true. it is like you just keep things to yourself. torment yourself. put yourself into a more agonizing situation. thoughts pop up on your minds thinking of those things. hayyy. and i could say that it applies to me, well to all of us of course.

from my previous blog posts, i wrote that i'm nainis lang to my classmate for being a grade conscious. and i get angry without him knowing, so the conclusion is. IT IS JUST A WASTE OF TIME AND ENERGY. :D may pagkabitter din kasi ako. hehe. fight fight! game game! aralan na.

nakakainlove boses ng kapatid ko sa org. hahaha. well aside from the fact na she's very beautiful. :)

wake me up when september ends

so a usual title since, as you can see, today is september 30 and this is the last day of the month. tomorrow would be my birth month. 31 days to go! actually, i'm not so excited about it. i would get a year older again but i'm thankful that i would still be alive for 19 years.

what happened to me today. well, many good things happened today. first is i didn't study professional deontology quiz and ma'am was not around so no quiz! hurrah! first bad thing, i'm so stupid that i didn't take note of the important things in medtech laws and bioethics but the second good new is i'm 76 in monthly grading period. that's quite high and i can say that i could be one of the highest in the class. hahaha. feelingero pero partially true though i just scan the whole grade sheet. 3rd good news is that i think i got a high grade naman in clin chem lab quiz, our last quiz, even though i just studied this morning. i'm very thankful to God. :) thank you po!

ayun, this was a tiring day. tomorrow is hema day! i need to work with full power now. no stopping. no bumming. just do things! goodluck to me. goodluck on my clin chem lec quiz and hema lec quiz.

i think kaya naman

siguro. sana. sana lang talaga. super gabi ko nang nakauwi kagabi, pag kadating ko ay natulog na lang ako kagad. gumising ako ngayon ng 4.20am. :D 3 hours to study i-minus pa dyan ang mga bum hours at ang time na nagbblog ako katulad ngayon.

sana makasagot ako mamaya. last quiz na sa clin chem lab. LAST!!!! :| makasagot lang ako ngayong araw, hindi na ako gagala ng araw katulad kahapon.

maybe i'll name my blog on its first birthday. :)

bipolar

ha? 2 nights akong hindi nakapagblog, nakapagkwento ng walang kwenta kong buhay. nung monday, hinatid si ate sa dorm at ako'y sinundo. mga around 8 iyon. sa kotse ay natulog lamang ako hanggang 11:30pm. wow db? so 2 hours akong natutulog sa kotse, sa sobrang antok sa sobrang pagod. that's coffee! memorable ang araw na iyon, sa pagkahyper, sa pagiging mas isip bata ko. so gumising ako ng mga 1am para mag-aral hanggang 4am. natulog at gumising ulit ng 7am para gumayak sa pagpasok. ang mga quizzes kahapon ay napakadali sadyang hindi lang ako nag-aral ng mabuti. that's a price of my tendency to be lax. i hate that! ang daming nasayang na points. points na maaaring magpataas pa sa grades. pero syempre hindi naman ako super grade conscious, kaya ayos lang. at least, i admitted it was my mistake, right?

tapos kahapon habang nagrreview kami para sa bacte lec, edi hindi mawawala ang kwentuhan, tanungan at harutan. may isang scene kung saan naging malungkot ako and after 1 second, parang naiba na iyong mood ko tapos masaya na. sinabihan ba naman nila akong bipolar. compliment ata iyon sa tingin ko. hahaha. i'm a bipolar. hello bipolar. bye bipolar.

hello sleepy head

so this is the effect of caffeine in the body. too much palpitation! too much coffee! ito naman kasing si engot, uminom ng kape kahit isang quiz lang meron bukas, ay ngayon pala. 'till now, i'm so super very hyper. a while ago, i'm trying to sleep yet when i put my arms on my chest, i can feel how my heart palpitate so hard. it's like i'm losing a lot of blood and it is trying to keep me alive. so bakit kamo hindi ko ilayo ang mga kamay ko sa chest? kahit na, hindi pa rin ako makatulog. i'm so deads later. my heart is still palpitating so hard.

so while my hey-i-want-to-sleep-mind and hey-i-can't-sleep-body are fighting, i've realized that our heart is very important in the body. it tries to keep us alive by distributing oxygenated and deoxygenated blood in every corner, point of our body. it's nice no? but sorry heart for making you tired today. i'm very sorry for drinking too much coffee. first time naman natin eh.

last saturday i had highschool mate who was shot in tarcan, baliuag bulacan. the holdaper shot him thrice so obviously my hayskulmate died. it is just sad. he was so young. may he rest in peace. i just thought that what would one think of when they were shot with a bullet, then the 2nd bullet and then what more for the third bullet. how does it feels like to have bullets penetrating your body, your organs, your life is being drained. . . is it like you'll see a light where you will talk one-on-one to God? ayun lang.

i'm kinikilig. hahaha.

okay masyado lang akong excited. hahaha. hindi naman ako kinikilig dahil may crush ako o kung ano man. nakakatuwa lang kasi ang maid sama, anime sa animax. maganda siya tapos sa september 30 may bago ulit anime, fairy tail. maybe i should read na the manga. hehehe.

i love japanese anime music o kahit japanese na rin in general. i don't know what they are saying but i love what i hear. it's soothing to my ears.

okay i'm so happy and hyper now kailangan sulitin bago mawala. :)

i just found out that i have different study habits na but if something good happen, i will be very inspired to do things. that maybe is the good side. okay it is nonsense. i just want to blog again. clin chem ulit!

why can't i be masipag?

tinatanong ko 'to sa sarili ko lately. i mean, masipag naman ako eh hindi lang sobrang sipag. kung tamad ako, hindi na ako nag-aaral and i just want to pass and not get high grades. mahirap kalabanin ang antok kapag nag-aaral. para kasing andame ng gagawin, alam mong marami gagawin yet hindi ka pa rin nagsimula. papetiks petiks ka sa simula and in the end, crammer ka. ayoko kasi magcram eh, ayoko ng nahihirapan ng sobra, mas gugustuhin ko ng maghirap ng konti kahit araw-araw and kapag day before the quiz, petiks na lang. pero ang masakit ay kung mas mataas pa sa'yo mga kaklase mong nag-aral before the quiz. aw.

speaking of antok, kaya ko kayang hindi matulog ng normal sleeping hours sa susunod na 3 linggo. last 3 weeks na lang at hindi pa kami tapos sa biostat. fcuk! kailangan matapos kami ngayong week na magdata collection at magtally. para medyo chillax na kahit papaano. sabi ng prof namin sa hema, dito daw namin mararanasan ang weeks na puro exam lang talaga. dito ko na nafefeel kung gaano katoxic ang medtech. woohoo!

God, please help me to stay awake later kahit hanggang 12am lang masaya na ako. tapos sana tulungan mo rin ako makapag-aral sa monday night para sa para pracs, at quiz at bacte lec quiz. after nun, medyo steady na ang week. sana talaga magmamass ako ngayong 5:30 kaso since inapura ko ang biostat survey, wala na, ayokong late sa mass eh. kaya 7pm mass ako pupunta tapos bibili ng kitkat at coke. please lang utak stay awake, wag ka matutulog. cge basa na ng favorite subject.

pagbigyan.

God is really great to me kasi in times like these, He finds a way to make me feel better. to inspire me. i'm a person kasi who feels good when you compliment me. when you say that my work is good and everything turned out okay, i will be happy. like last time when i joined bola ni totoy production, my friends told me that i can dance. i felt so happy because i don't usually dance. there are rare opportunities for me to be included in a dance group. ayun, since i want reassurance naglalabas ako ng mga rants and hinanakits to my friends who were medtech graduates. his name is kuya gelo. our conversation goes like this.

"Do it. It's good to study you know. And it's healthy. hindi ako sipsip, pero, I believe you can be the best student of UST Med. tech. =) If they did it, so can you better. :D" Kuya Gelo

Me: kuya gelo iniisia-isa na nia

ang mga quiz.

nila pala.

Gelo-Fury: Because malapit na matapos ang 1st sem

DO NOT QUIT

LABAN LANG

I will be disappointed if you quit.

Me: hahaha. hindi po ako magqquit. iniisip ko din po kasi kung mag-aaral na rin ako sa para para sa tuesday

chem lang po kasi exam bukas.

Gelo-Fury: Do it.

Its good to study you know.

And its healthy

Hindi ako sipsip, pero, I believe you can be the best student of UST Med. Tech. =)

If they did it, so can you better. :D

Me: hahahaha. wow. nakakatuwa naman po iyon. hahaha. sige po aaralin ko na rin ang para.

Gelo-Fury : Out muna ako Basil. Good luck and God bless you always. =)

Me: hahaha thanks po sa uplifting kuya gelo

super thanks po

ingat po kayo and Godbless din

Gelo-Fury is offline.

*end of conversation. in just a matter of minutes, i felt so uplifted. i felt so happy. i'm not saying that i would be the best student in uste medtech but maybe i can be one. natutuwa lang kasi ako. super thanks kuya gelo!