Back to reality

No more Q week. No more disruption of classes. No more fun. It would be just the classroom-laboratory and myself and my classmates and my love. Hahaha. We went to Caloocan from 10.58pm to 11.58pm. I was tired and sleepy though I didn't do anything the whole day. By the way, I'm trying to eat less rice because I saw my first year pics and my current pics they were all the same except that I'm fatter now. Not so much, a little bit lang naman. Here I am studying for my Clinical Chemistry quiz, I hope that sir would forget about it because sometimes, he does forget it.

I'm really happy and I know you know why. It's just that I'm still not used to it. There would be times now that I can't do anything like I used what to do. But hey, I'm really happy. We're open with each other somehow. :)

Happy last day of the month! Goodbye January 2011! You're surely great to me, thank you. :)

No to mushiness

I'm just happy with the turn of events in this stage of my life. I'm glad that for once I've felt being in love. But the thing is I'm saying mushy or cheesy things and it's weird for me to say them. Well I guess this is what happens to everyone who is in love. Hahaha. It's like everything changed now but I can't let that fully happen. I want to make things somehow normal. The endpoint of my story is "I'm happy."

No classes again today! I'm a bum for a week now.

That's love. I think so.

A mutual understanding between two people is great. I think this is how i can summarized a relationship ladder. First you're both strangers to each other. Second both of you just know each others name then you become friends. You become closer to each other until one feels special to the other one. Then a day would come that the other one will feel the same too until the moment when both will have to tell each others' feelings. End. That's how I can summarize the relationship status for now because these are the only things that I had experienced so far.

Yesterday was one of the most happiest moments of my life. It was really special including the fact that it was UST's Quadricentennial Countdown and the unveiling of the Quadri monument. Charlene Gonzales and Piolo Pasucual were there because they are the model of the statues there. I think they are great Thomasian alumni indeed. Okay. Enough with the events, they are great. Yes.

I'm such an asshole. I mean I'm not the one who initiate OUR talk. There is 'our' now not her nor I alone. We tell each other how we felt though in an INDIRECT WAY. Yes, I'm really a sore loser. I am really happy with what happened yesterday. Wahhh!!!! That was the first time in my life so please bear with me. I'm such an asshole again for not putting the situation in a proper place. Actually, I felt awkward at that moment. Okay. Imagine the place. We were walking to Mcdo Lacson via UST Dapitan walkway. We were talking and telling things to each other and then we rode the jeepney. I paid for our fare and we talk about cheesy things. Can you get the picture? We talk about our lovelife in public, in a jeepney pa! I'm surely is an asshole. Hahaha. But hey, I'm just really glad that I made her happy and she made me happy. That was the first time in my life. Thank you aia. :) This would be the first post that I mentioned your name. I hope everything between us would be fine. I will keep the cheesy stuffs for myself.

Bleu, that's my story for now. I will tell more things, maybe in the near future.

Quadri Fun!

Kwento ko muna iyong ngayon. Kagabi kasi hindi namin alam kung may pasok sa cc lec o wala and napag-isipan ko na huwag na lang pumasok. I cut the only class today kasi uncertain kung may pasok o wala eh. Sana kung dormer ako, papasok ako kaso hindi eh. Tapos paano kung wala naman si sir, edi sayang pagpunta ko. Okay. Ngayon umagang ito, alam kong mali ako. Umabsent ako eh at andun daw si sir. Hahaha. Aattend naman ako ng exhibit, sure ako dun pero sadyang mahirap lang talagang gumising ng napakaaga para pumasok sa isang class na nung gabi ay hindi mo alam kung may pasok o wala. Fudge, ang haba at spontaneous ng typing ko. -end-

Sa fun part naman ng week. Wala kaming classes kahapon pero basta we just had fun parang foundation day lang nung highschool. Nag-attendance lang. Nanuod ng cheermania. Kumain. Gumawa ng histopath at nagbonding. Tumambay until night. We played games like pepsi seven up and piso, singkwenta. Okay, kami na ang bata. Tapos ang sakit sa paa, hindi kasi running shoes ang gamit ko hindi ba? Tapos sobrang pawis ko, iyong body spray ko nung umaga ay walang nang katrace-trace sa akin. Hahaha. Purely amoy pawis na ako. Tingin ko nga magkakasakit na kami kasi after namin maglaro, nagpatuyo kami ng pawis. Ayun lang. Basta funfunfun. Sana wag KJ iyong classes namin tomorrow na may quizzes din kasi aattend ako mamaya ng countdown ng UST. Ang countdown na hindi ko na muling makikita after so many years kasi patay na ako for sure dun sa 500th year ng UST. Wow, ano kaya mangyayari dun? Hmmmm. Sana kahit patay na ako, makikita ko pa rin kung ano nangyayari sa mundo.

Hinihiling ko na lang na sana huwag magpaquiz o mang-absent si sir kasi quadri week naman e. remember, quadri week. It's a celebration, let's have some funfunfun.

Until you got love in 400 years

Haha. Dinugtong ko lang talaga iyong 400 years. Happy Quadricentennial Week to the University of Santo Tomas. Ang boring ngayon araw kasi wala talaga kaming ginawa. Alam mo iyong nakatambay lang? Kami iyon. Ewan parang sana hindi na lang ako pumasok pero sinanay talaga ako ni mami na bawal aabsent kahit tinatamad ka pa. Yup! Ganun talaga si ina kaya ito, hindi ako marunong umabsent. Hahaha.

BB is love! BB lab is more love! BB practicals is the most love! Ay, Hema pala ang most love! Anyway, ngayon ko nafeel na nakakasawa na ang laging nag-aaral. Paulit-ulit na lang inaaral namin. Imagine ABO nung monthly, ABO pa nung prelims plus Rh. Ayun padagdag ng padagdag lahat yan hanggang compre, which is fun by the way. Siksikan na sila sa utak. May practicals kami sa BB lab ng Rh typing, Du typing at AHG plus may quiz din kami sa tatlong yan. Yeah, more love it is.

Buti naman at nakayanan kong hindi magblog for some days kasi parang 'di ba araw-araw na lang may entry. Ang corny. Hahaha. I miss you Bleu! Ito ulit I update you. I will always update you. I will always miss you. I will always be with you. I will always love you. Until you got love, you know you got nothing.

SIsihin ba si SI?

I'm glad that I didn't stayed up late just to study for the exam. Ang great extractor at dehydrator niya ng mga laman ng utak mo. Alam mo iyon, extracted talaga. Pipigain ng sobra sobra hanggang sa wala nang masala. Thank you God for letting me sleep pero sayang iyong Thursday ko. It's the most sayang day ever.

I'm looking forward to our talk.

Mind reading

Okay introduction na lang muna kasi alam mo iyong, hindi pa nag-aaral? Ako iyon eh. I slept from 3pm to 11pm. Talk about batugan. Ewan hindi naman kasi ako pagod marahil ay hindi ko lamang nadarama ang pagod.

Siguro ang relasyon naming dalawa ni crush ay complicated one. Her stat a while ago was

"i wish to know what is on your mind"

Hindi ko alam kung para kanino yan baka nagfefeeling lang ako. I also wish to know what's on your mind. Hindi kasi kami nag-uusap alam mo iyon, tipong personal. Kumbaga hindi heart-to-heart talk. Hahaha. Isang beses pa lang namin nagawa iyon, epic fail pa. Pero natuwa ako dun. :) I think our problem is that we don't communicate. Simpleng usap lang. Sumama ako umuwi sa kanila for 2 straight days at hindi sumama sa aking mga kaibigan sa Starbucks sapagkat nangugulo lang ako. Ayun basta nung last usapan namin ayaw niyang sabihin sa akin iyong nakakapagpakabagab[hindi ko alam] sa kanya. Isang dahilan was when I texted her sorry iyong second, hindi ko alam pero sinabi na niya somehow. It may be me. Sa buong buhay ko ngayon ko lang nafeel na may nammroblema pala sa'yo, in a good way. I hope everything works out alright. Hayyy.

*I'm bitter sa exams namin kahapon. Ang dadali pero nagpakabobo ako. Hahaha

Gotten

"I've been saving these last words for one last miracle
But now I'm not sure
I can't save you if you don't let me
You just get me like I've never been gotten before
Like I've never been gotten before"

-Gotten by Slash

We have this awkward moments yesterday, you see. Hindi naman sa hindi kami nag-uusap pero hindi na kami nag-uusap like what we used to do. We're friends. parang iyong text na lang ang paraan para makapag-usap kami e. Ang aming mga cellphones ang naging medium para mamaintain namin ang aming pagsasama at hindi pa gawing MAS komplikado ang sitwasyon. Okay puro usap na word ang pinasasabi ko. I just realized that I should do something special for her each day kaso wala pa rin e. Hahaha. I have a kwento pala. Kasi nagkakwentuhan kami ni Hito kahapon. Sabi nia "***, paano kung niligawan ka ni *****?" Tumingin ng sandali sa kanya si crush. Tapos nagtanong ulit si Hito, "***, malay mo ligawan ka ni *****? Tapos maya-maya raw nagayos daw ng buhok si crush. Sabi ni Hito, "O bakit ka nagpapaganda ngayon?" Sabi ni crush, "Malay mo." Natuwa naman ako. Hahaha. Seriously.

*I'm feeling sleepy right now kaso I can't sleep for I slept from 6pm to 1am. I think I will go straight home later, my eyes are really tired. Sana makasabay ako sa aking lrtmates mamaya para naman hindi stress ang uwi pero stress sa bulsa kasi taxi sinasakyan namin. Naiinggit ako sa friends ko kasi may effect sa kanila iyong coffee. Nagpapalpitate sila samantalang ako pinapabagal pa niya kaya inaantok ako. Hahaha. Sige gagayak na ako in a while.

I hope no goodbyes

The situation has become quite a complicated one. I will just tell it to you later if I have the time. I hope everything would turn out just fine, I hope that nothing will change and yesterday night was the time I was nervous while typing. Hahaha.

As usual, I'm not productive these days. I mean I don't even study seriously. I waste all these precious times to be a bum and these wasted time would be my regret after the exams. I promise and promise but I don't try to do them, what's the point?! I'm here blogging to rant my life. To remove the stress I'm feeling. The fast heartbeat. Thoughts in my mind. Monologues to situations. I do that most of the time, I'm crazy but I'm not. By the way, I'm having fun in Blood Banking. This surely is an interesting subject. Virology is very interesting but *pardon for my choice of words* the prof is bobo. Amp. Ang saya saya ng subject ginagawa niyang boring. Lumalabas pagkabitch niya e. No more comment about the gender preferences. Basta tapos, we're not med students to study those things. Ampness talaga, binigay na handouts galing sa med?! Anong stupidity iyon?! Nagturo pa siya kung tamad din naman pala siyang gumawa ng sarili lang niyang handouts. Huwag na siya magprof! Nakapasa siya ng ust med? graduate siya? doktor siya? who cares! Hindi nga lang siya magaling magturo, so useless din. Sorry sa pagiging mean.

I will study again. BB lec this time. Not yet studying virology. Fun fun.

*I'm Libra now if I have to follow the new zodiac sign sequence. I looked at the characteristics of a Libra and nothing matched. Hahaha. I will still believe that I'm one of the Scorpios. I am one. I may be one. I would like to be one! Hindi lang talaga fully developed and pagiging fully-pledged Scorpio ko. :)

Sorry

I was asked by Pat P, "Bakit daw ako malayo kay crush?" Medyo nafeel ko na iyon ang tatanong niya sa akin eh. I answered, "Hindi naman eh. Nag-uusap naman kami e."

May naging realization ako some weeks ago. Nag-ask kasi si crush na sumandal sa akin kasi pagod siya pero sabi ko kay Paulo na lang. :| After nung araw na iyon, narealize ko na parang bakit iyon ang ginawa ko. We're friends naman talaga e or baka umayaw lang ako dahil baka tuksuhin kami. Ang selfish pala ng reasons ko nun. Wahhh! Nababagabag na talaga ako sa tanong na iyon. *I just texted crush and said Sorry ü. Sabi niya wrong send.*

Sa next time na mag-ask ka, papasandal na ako. I'm very sorry!

Rumor spreads

Nasabi lang sa akin ni Pat kahapon na alam daw niya iyong mga damoves na ginawa ko. Hahaha. Amp. Sinabi raw ni Paulo kay Chari na sinabi naman kay Pat. 'Yan ang magkakaibigan. Sa totoo lang sasabihin ko naman talaga kay Pat eh, sadyang hindi lang ako sanay, hindi lang ako maalam magkwento sa maraming tao. Paisa-isa lang.

Hindi ko pa pala nababati si seatmate. Congratulations seatmate! For being the highest in CM LEC Exam Monthly. Grabe ang galing! Ayun so paano ba 'yan? Free Mcdo lunch na? Haha. Alam niyo kasi nagpustahan kaming dalawa, kung sino highest ay manlilibre ng chickenfillet at coke float. Highest siya, so libre niya ako. Darating din naman ang time na ililibre ko siya eh. Hahaha. I have plans now on what to do during Valentine's Day. Yes that same day 3 years ago. I will take the risk if Valentine's Day is really meant for me. Uhhhh. Fudge! Monday pala ang araw na iyon. Well, I will just go with the flow. Tingin ko sasabihin ko iyong kwento ko kay Mon kapag free na kami. Makikikuchaba ako sa kaibigan niya. :) Sana maging maayos. Ang simple lang no? :)

Kung kailan kailangan tsaka hindi gumagana, great! -Bass to the printer-

I miss them

Long time no blog, Bleu! I'm very sorry I haven't updated you for a while. I'm just too tired to blog some days ago. I think that was Tuesday, I was so sleepy at that time even though I slept on the prescribed time needed by our body. Nyek.

Now I can feel that this is 3rd year medtech 2nd sem. Hello hell! Next week there are 3 exams per day. Goodluck naman. Tsaka na lang ulit tayo magkwentuhan. :D

i missed sleeping.

Happy Night

* 1 hour to go before I stop reviewing and here I am blogging.

kagabi kasi si paulo, kinausap si crush. nagbonding sila while having the experiment. actually, hindi ko alam na nag-uusap sila nito pero sabi lang sa akin ni pau nung mga malapit na matapos ung class na may super magandang good news daw siya skin. eh since ako ay isang nagpapakatoxic na student, sabi ko maya mo na lang sabihin. ang problem, pinauna ko na sila kasi maglilinis pa ako ng gamit. see, toxic? nakatext ko lang si pau kaya niya nasabi sa akin. pero pramis, you could see me laughing alone in the house during those times. wala lang sobrang natuwa lang ako dun sa nangyaring iyon. ang simpleng pagbati ng 12.xxam ay malaking bagay pala sa kanya. :) sana lang, hindi ako umasa at hindi rin siya sana umasa. haha. sorry, kailangan ng mabilisang typing kaya small letters ulit sila.

and to my good friend, Paulo. . . maraming salamat. that made my night.

Insomnia

I can't sleep. My heart's palpitating a lot and yes, I can really feel it. Haha. I like the feeling of palpitation. Commercial lang. I just somehow finished CM and CC. Hema na lang and then, review again. :) Wala man lang online ngayon gabi. Kainis. Walang kakulitan.

Hello hell weeks.

Pinapatikim na sa amin ang hell week, prelims na kasi next week e. Grabe iyong CM lab nakakabaliw magkabisa. As in sobrang dami! Considering the fact na hindi pa ako masyado nag-aaral sa Hema lab at CC lec. :) That's life. I just thought na nakakatulong ang pagtulog sa hapon para mag-aral sa gabi. Tapos gusto ko iyong feeling na parang may bronchoconstriction ka. Tipong nahihirapan ka huminga ng konti kasi feeling ko ang hyper ko e. Ang funfun. I need to be hyper kasi marami pa ang dadanasin ko ngayong gabi.

Studying while in Bangag mode = Kaboom sa Exam

Hahaha. Ang fun ng birthday party ni MaMi Jer. Basagan lahat. Almost lahat basag. Hahaha. Grabe mga tao kapag lasing talaga, sasabihin sa iyo ng harapan iyong mga dapat sabihin sa iyo. Nilecturan kasi nila ako about kay crush. Sa akin na lang iyong mga pinagsasabi nila. Ayun. It was really fun. Hinatid kami ni Pat at sinundo kami ni Kuya so libre ang pamasahe ko. Hahaha. Thank you syempre sa mga birthday celebrators.

May pagkatotoo na kung medyo lasing ka, you can say things. Things na you don't normally say to people. Medyo nahurt ako dun sa sinabi nila paulo at ma. May kasama raw kasing boy si crush kahapon. Ayun. Hindi naman iyong sa nagpapakaemo ako pero nahurt lang ng konti. Slight lang. Tapos naconfirm ko na kung sino talaga iyong isa pang may crush kay crush. I was right from the start. Sana hindi siya iyong kausap ni crush sa last minute. Nagsuggest kasi si paulo na ganun na nga lang ako babati kaso lagpas 12 na ako nakatawag. Ginising ko raw siya.

"alam mo na nasobra akong natouch kagabe" -crush-

Ewan medyo natuwa naman ako. Kahit wala man lang akong gift sa kanya natouch pa rin siya in a simple way. Ha? Okay sige gayak na ako pauwi. Ingat!

NO G-G

I wished today would be a fine day and it was. Thank you God for helping me with the quiz in Pharmacology. I hope that I got all the answers correctly. Ate's handouts were very helpful, indeed.

We bought gifts at SM North Edsa a while ago and it's tiresome. As much as possible, I don't want to go to malls and walk. Tsk. Chari and I returned to UST after that and I met with kuya gelo to give me gifts and a book. Thank you kuya gelo! Someday, I can return all the kindness you shared to us!

I had a chat with crush a while ago and it was fun. She told me that she doesn't need first, my greetings and then second, my gift. Actually I don't have a present for her and I just thought of writing a letter which come from my heart. Imagine, I thought about that while on my way home. Imagine, a hidden smile on my face. I'm serious that I won't greet her and give her gift. Hahaha. This would be fun. I will give it na lang after her birthday. :)

Hyperactive

Hyper ako ngayon. Ang saya. Hahaha. Baka dulot ito ng Sneakers na kinain ko, promise.

Pharma bukas! Woohoo! Sana tama inaaral ko. Please lang.

A Wasted Opportunity

I think my life revolve around studies, love, family, friends, and a near-to-zero social life. I'm quite frustrated with my studies because I tend to be lazy most of the time. I won't promise anything from now, I will just do my best, I guess.

A while ago, I didn't grab on an opportunity. Kasi during discussion ang boring talaga so people tend to sleep. Yes, harapang bastusan. Iyong iba, nakadukdok sa desk kahit may prof. Tindi nila. Ako naman harapang bastusan sa prof kasi nagkukulay pa ako para sa lab notebook namin. :) Like. Like. Going back sa storya, sabi ni crush magllean daw siya sa akin. Eh simula na noong first year, hindi ako nagpapaganon tapos naisip ko lang parang ang mean ko sa kanya. Sayang kasi iyong opportunity na iyon and I realized kasi na konting time na lang kami magkakasama so parang wala na. Hindi naman kami parati na magkatabi since lumilipat siya sa friends siya. Hayy...

Birthday nga pala niya sa sabado. :) May her day be a happy one and may I have the courage.

Headache of a Lifetime

As far as I could remember, I only drank Biogesic twice and I'm quite not sure. That's what it feels like to have a headache, it's hard. It's like your head is being pounded. Like your head is gonna explode at any minute now. I'm just glad that it didn't turned out like that. Thanks nga pala to Miko for the meds and gatorade.

Would somebody teach or help me to learn new things? It's really hard to do it by myself. Hahaha. I hope that I would become mature enough before this 2011 ends [that's super tagal pa.] I really need to. I need to be more human. I need somebody to love. I need you.

Great. Just great!

I'm thinking of changing the way how i blog. Maybe i should write a sentence with a capital letter? For more than a year, I've only been using small letters in writing for my blog. Things would change now and I will be used to it [I hope so.]

I've been thinking on how to think optimistically since tomorrow is the start of our classes. Yes to that! Amp! And the results are satisfactory and I'm really happy. It felt like that our last 3 months before internship would be just a breeze. I had a small chat with a college friend and he told me, "Ang sarap pakinggan ng last 3 months na lang." True. True. Especially after January, we would say 2 months na lang then until it becomes 1 month na lang and the best part would be when we would be say, 'Interns na kami!'

But all the happiness that i felt were gone in an instant. I had this lab results in the house, I looked at it and put it beside the x-ray results of Kian. Knowing that it would still be here by now, I didn't care about it and I realized that I should fixed my things now. I asked my mom where are the lab results and she told me that she put the results in the paper envelope. Wow! What a great way to end my last Christmas vacation. It's alright if I don't bring it with me later but I just want to fix everything now so I won't be stressed out later when it's already January 6 and those results are needed by that time. I said to myself, "Sige okay lang 'yan. Basta dapat before January 6 nasa akin na iyan. Kung hindi, edi no internship na." Haha. I'm really hot-headed most of the time. Nakakinis kasi. Naiinis ako ngayon.

I'm just telling you how I feel at this very moment. Ang hirap pala magtype using capital letters. Hahaha. I will also try it when having a chat with friends para masanay na ako.