all out please

i just want to cry but the problem is i can't maybe i need to watch something touchy or really sad. i'm not born to cry. i just want to blog and tell how hard it is to study a single subject in one night. yes, i know that i'm irresponsible but even those who are studious won't be able to finish them. i'm sure. actually, i won't be pressured like this IF only i got high scores for my two quizzes on bb lec. and another pressure factor would be, i read the whole chapter and answered the review questions. i only got few correct answers. i'm doomed. i already drank two cups of coffee to let me stay awake. i hope it works. i'm stressed out. my mind is tired. okay i rant so many things. i've only got 2 more weeks to let me rant. please. i want it over. iwantitallout.

*i just realized. maybe i don't have "the" feeling. wah! fucked up brain. fucked up heart. fucked up me. i just felt that maybe we're not compatible enough. i don't know, it's just a feeling. maybe this would be a not-meant-to-be for me but i want to be for me.